There are an infinite variety of sources that we, as human beings can turn to for inspiration and strength. That's what makes it all so wonderful-the fact that we do have many ways to seek this out. Pity those who cannot find any source at all...
I'm sitting here wondering what to write. My mind is very distracted, my heart is running the full gamut of emotions. Gratitude is one that is very much so at the center of it all.
It started with a phone call from my brother in Hawaii yesterday morning-I think around 5 am or so his time. You know it's not a good thing when you get a call at that hour of the day. Dad was being taken via ambulance to the hospital, complaining of chest pains. He had surgery less than 12 hours prior to that to open up a vein that is accessed for his dialysis. After being admitted to ER, initial tests indicated that there was no evidence of a heart attack. Subsequent tests indicate that he indeed did suffer a heart attack and that his left artery is blocked. Too much for an angioplasty to remedy. Choices are 1) open heart surgery, or 2) drug therapy. In either case, it is not a good thing.
I know all dad wants to do is to go home (to Molokai). I can't blame him. If I were him, I would want the same thing. He is at peace with whatever comes his way, really. And, he'd just as soon be in the comfort of his own home instead of a hospital room.
This whole scenario would've been so completely different had this happened while he was at home on Molokai. Medical help is a long ways off-in fact, it's an ocean and an island away. By the Grace of God, he was in a big city near medical help when this occurred.
None of us know the outcome of a situation like this. I am grateful for each day that comes for each day is truly a gift. My job is to be mindful enough to use that gift wisely. And to remain grateful for all that has come my way. In spite of receiving disturbing news like this.
But, in processing the emotions that are running through me, I do seek sources of strength. This Psalm is one in particular. There is a song that was written based on this Psalm. It is called "On Eagle's Wings". You might already be familiar with it. If not and you would like to hear it, just click on the link.
Every week, a group of us from around the world post our shadow shots over at Hey Harriet. Entertain your muse and be amused by stopping by to see what others have posted!
You can view all of my 2009 Shadow Shot Sunday images on my Flickr account. Click here and then select the "Shadow Shot" set.
By the way, this week's shadow is from the beautiful Quarai Mission Church.
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The picture seems to show the conflict - the shadow seems huge and nearly impenetrable. But the sunny beauty exists in the same frame, so perhaps there is hope. We hope to hold onto life and the beauty we see for as long as possible. Life is a precious gift from above, when a loved one may pass on to the next life, the preciousness of life is what is important.
To much insignificant whining in the world seems incessant, living and having a family to love and care about matters most. We need to pray for your dad so he can stay with hi loved ones a little bit longer...
Just sent a prayer up for your papa. As if dialysis isn't enough. I too appreciate Psalm 40 and just last evening at Bible study our teacher spoke on it! (When I get the cd next week I'll get an extra one for you if you'd like.Just send your mailing address to me. cassiejo@juno.com)
Oh yeah, your Shadow Shot is cool! Big structures make some really neat shadows.
Even though it is high for my voice, I love the melody to On Eagle's Wings. Beautiful, meaningful music.
oh Paula... hope he feels better.
I completely understand, as I am seeing things happening in my dad's life right now as well.
prayers and well wishes... I am sending them your way.
Lovely shadow photo. Sorry to hear about your dad, my partner's dad is suffering almost exactly the same combination of problems.
I'm so glad I finally got a hold of you, I tried and tried yesterday, but blogger wouldn't let me through, luckily you commented and I connected with that...so sorry to hear about your Dad again, what we go through with our loved ones. My Dad will be 82 Wednesday, his memory is fading fast, I worry every day about his health, he never goes to the doctor for anything, he's still very active and I think that helps, we are very close!
My thoughts are with you and your Father...take care!
sharon
Having been through this stage of my father's life I know how difficult it is especially since you're so far away. I hope all goes well, Paula.
So glad your Dad got the care he needed. I have been to Molokai and liked it very much because it is not as touristy as the other islands.
i am so sad to hear this & hope all is well by now - i am so behind in all my catching up, if that makes any sense.
sending prayers your way & his way.
xoxo
Debi
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